The question is of course if I can really do it. Not go out, not despair about having lack of dates, or not wake up in the middle of the night and feel the immense loneliness of the quiet early morning.
I doubt it.
Well, for one, I like going out. I like going out to watch movies, do window shopping. I like getting in touch with old friends I haven't seen in a long while. I like going to Powerbooks to browse new titles or National Bookstore to buy new office supplies (I have an unreasonable interest in keeping stock of most office/art supplies which I seldom use). I feel lonely when I don't see a friend for quite some time. I feel lonely when I lost track of the world. I feel lonely and desperate when I don't even try to make new friends.
Oh well.
Let's see what will come out of this decision to hibernate this March.
I haven't written a blog in a while, maybe because I was busy thinking of my fears. There's still the top 3, (it remains to be top 3) and I am busy going through the motions of everyday living. But this weekend,we came from a family outing, and it was fun to be with the entire family again. (I'll post some pics here...maybe!)
Anyway, I'm praying that I can find it in my heart to be content and happy with what I have, or at least have some sort or semblance of a peace of mind.
I will definitely hibernate this March. Just to at least try to get my chubby cheeks and pudgy fingers a little less chubby and pudgy.
Gah!
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