Getting Tired

I'm tired of being afraid of things to come, things that might happen, and all the self-pity those events might bring. Geesh.

I'm stressing over the fact that it's only a few more days till my relatives can sharpen their knives by asking me why am I the only single one left among my cousins and siblings. I'm stressing over the coming month. I'm stressing over the coming year.

And on top of that, I'm lonely, desperately lonely, sometimes. When I stress about it. And around Christmas time, I'm stressing much more than usual.

Gah. This is a vicious cycle.

I have to stop.

I can't help it.