You have the power to MAKE YOUR LIFE HAPPY.
Don't wait for someone or something.
My best friend said I should write about a quote about life but i wanted to write something about love. This quote is something about both.
Who doesn't want to be happy? Everybody does. We look for happiness in every turn and in every aspect of our lives that we are not contented to be happy in one area, we'll complain and whine until we are happy in another. We always say, 'I'll really be happy if...' why should there be 'ifs' and 'buts' to happiness I don't know. But i can understand and i can fully relate because i'm one of the millions of people who do this everyday of their lives. No matter how hard i try to be happy just for being alive, i still insert that little word, 'but'.
I have a great life. I'm closer to my family than ever before, we go out every time and i think myself a loser for just going out with my family and not with someone or with friends. I'm reaching for one dream, and i'm still not happy because i told myself i'll not be happy until i fulfill this one dream. I'm happy that i have friends to talk to, to laugh with and to exchange non-consequential and mundane things in life, but no, i'll not be happy until i a married.
Don't get me wrong, i appreciate all the things that God has given me. But i'm often guilty of wanting too much, of expecting too much. Hasn't God given me everything that is really important in life? Health, family and love? But i still want more and i think God will not get too angry at me for wanting more. I believe He just wants me to appreciate what i have now and be happy for those, but i can go on wanting more.
I believe that the problem lies in the fact that i postpone happiness. If I am with family, then i should be happy and feel happy because others may want to spend time with their family but they can't because their parents don't have time for them. If i am with girl friends, then i should be happy because couples don't get to spend time with their friends anymore, all they do is live in their little cocoon, where the two of them are the only people living in there. If I lost 5 pounds, I am not happy, because I want to lose 30. Gah. If i'm taking a journey to reach one dream, i should celebrate, because not many people even have taken any steps to reach their dreams and some even don't know what they truly want in life.
So it's true. I have the power to make my life happy. I don't have to wait for someone or something. I don't have to wait for the guy of my dreams to celebrate Valentines day when i can spend it with friends. Or spend it with guy friends who also wanted to get away from all the hoopla of the big Vday. Some say it's just sourgraping. Sourgraping, my ass. I admit that i am still looking for my special someone. But i won't postpone celebrating Valentines day when i can celebrate and have more fun than even couples do. I don't have to wait for the guy of my dreams to get myself flowers if i wanted flowers. Or to buy chocolates if i wanted to eat chocolates. I don't have to wait for The One to celebrate the happy moments of my life. I don't have to postpone any happiness that i can gain while i still can.
I used to think i'm a hopeless romantic. I still think those chocolates are sweeter when they are given and flowers are more beautiful when they are delivered with love. But i won't twiddle my thumbs and whine and cry until that day comes. Remember, we girls have to go out there and look for our man. So, in reality we should not be waiting for them to come, we should be out there looking at candidates. Why not celebrate while looking? Every journey is as exciting as the next one.
But I will continue to hope and to pray and to wish for him to come to me someday...like i said, i won't be waiting idly. So I'm not a hopeless romantic. I'm a hopeful fool. Hoping the One Meant For Me will just have to come see me wherever i am celebrating my tiny happy moments at the time.
Lord, please don't make him lose his way.
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*re-posted. revised today. originally written feb 5 2004
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