Oh well. I bought 7 birthday greeting cards. Yes, 7. And those are just the close friends who're all celebrating their birthdays during the second half of May and the first half of June -- the Geminis.
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Gemini - Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless. They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower. To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine.
Libra is the only inanimate sign of the zodiac, all the others representing either humans or animals. Many modern astrologers regard it as the most desirable of zodiacal types because it represents the zenith of the year, the high point of the seasons, when the harvest of all the hard work of the spring is reaped. Librans too are among the most civilized of the twelve zodiacal characters and are often good looking. They have elegance, charm and good taste, are naturally kind, very gentle, and lovers of beauty, harmony (both in music and social living) and the pleasures that these bring. The negative Libran character may show frivolity, flirtatiousness and shallowness. It can be changeable and indecisive, impatient of routine, colorlessly conventional and timid, easygoing to the point of inertia, seldom angry when circumstances demand a show of annoyance at least; and yet Librans can shock everyone around them with sudden storms of rage.
I don't know why, (I believe it has something to do with my being a Libran...) but out of all the Zodiacs, I have the strongest affinity towards the Geminis. Ria E., Ria B., Arno, Melan, Sarah, Joann and Mutie (And that guy friend from the past whose name sounds like a chocolate bar). They're the kind of old friends who were partners-in-crime, shopping partners, secret keepers and cheerleaders. We have the friendship that you can confess to a dirty deed and not feel guilty about any of it. The only people that can read me like a book (besides Remcy and RV) and can out-talk me anytime.
Hmm, I have to send out these cards tomorrow.
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Talked to RV last night. As usual, the banter is there. We traded insults like it's what close friends do all the time, and I complained and I can imagined him rolling his eyes several times but it was good to be lectured again. I admit, I have these thoughts in my head that needs organization and since Remcy is out of the country, RV is the next best thing. They go about it differently though. My best friend listens and sits quietly and tells me how to sort out my priorities and put some semblance of organization in my life. RV sighs, takes a deep breath and tells me exactly what to do. Both works for me. Those two are the only people who can point me in the right direction.
But they're not Geminis.
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While talking to old friends last night, (3 old friends in fact, who I miss terribly) I was in an emotional roller coaster. The first one, we talked about silly things like Star Wars (call me a Geek, I earned it.) and blind dates. The second friend told me her most recent love story. I'm a sucker for romance, but I admit, with age, it has become tiresome and somewhat of a sore point for me. But she made me remember why I like talking about love. The giggling, the butterflies in the stomach, the sighs and how your knees melt. Of course, I was very aware of the ugliness of love. The pain of unrequited love, the ugly jealousy and the petty grievances due to high expectations. That was not her story and so I welcomed it wholeheartedly.
Nice to hear a good, ol' fashioned love story every now and then. Makes me believe in love again. A little.
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Something about what RV said struck me last night. Two things actually. He said, 'so, if you're an old maid, so what?' Yes, so what? What is it such a big deal? I guess I just don't like to be pitied, and I don't like feeling inferior, and never belonging to the crowd. But really, if that is my life, so what? I just have to make peace with it.
The second thing is that he said he's giving himself 5 years to pursue a dream. And then I realized I was too hard on myself. I've given myself 2 years and now I'm impatient and I'm giving up.
I began to re-think my situation. Achieving dreams are worth the extra 3 years, don't you think?
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Hmm, I hope all plans to meet up with old friends pushes through this week and the next. Plus the outing with the girls. I started dieting today. I started dieting for the nth time. Hehe. Hopefully tomorrow is not another start. :-p
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