"Self-pity gets you nowhere. One must have the adventurous daring to accept oneself as a bundle of possibilities and undertake the most interesting game in the world -- making the most of one's best."-- Richard Willard Armour (1906-89), American poet

"Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."-- Saint Francis of Assisi (1182-1226), Reconized as having lived an exceptionally holy life

I'm getting ready to get out of this personal slump that I've been in for the last few weeks. It's especially been easy to just think of all the negative things and wallow in self-pity rather than get out and do something about it. I don't really have anything to say. I just want to post St. Francis' prayer. My favorite prayer. But well, I'm going to write a few lines running through my head, so I won't go crazy just letting it be.

I wonder, why is it not okay for me not to have it all? Why is it such a shame that I don't have a job come June? Why am I feeling guilty about turning down two job offers when I really can't see myself in those schools? Do I want to have a job for job's sakes only? I went into this profession, because I feel that this is what I wanted. Now, I'm finding out that there maybe something else in store for me.

Hmm, the thing is, I'm the only one making me feel this way.

Go figure. I can make myself fully depressed and console myself two weeks after. Talk about weird, huh?