Regrets

If there's one thing I believe I will regret if ever I will not be bless with True Love or marriage is that I will never get to have my own children. I've always known the difficulties of having children. The rising costs, the emotional stress and the fears accompanied with them growing up. All the negative stuff put together. But Joaquin and Iya and the students made me realize that I really want to have children. Or even a child.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder

You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger

May you never take one single breath for granted

God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed

I think I'll be a better mother than a daughter to my own mother. I'll want my daughter to always think she's beautiful, and smart and good. I don't want her to grow up with many insecurities. And I wish she'll be childlike forever, that we can hug in public even if she's already old enough to have a boyfriend.

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens

Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance

If I have a son, I hope I'll be able to teach him not to be too arrogant and proud. I hope he'll always turn to God and won't think it's something to be ashamed of. And I wish I can kiss him even when he's taller and heavier than me. And I would like him to grow up thinking it's okay to cry and turn to his mother for comfort.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance

Never settle for the path of least resistance

Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'

Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'

Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter

When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider

Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance. I hope you dance...

I looked at the third graders last week and I was wondering if all of them will grow up to be normal adults, pessimistic, grumpy and always hiding behind masks. I prayed that some will retain that childlike wonder and the bravery of being themselves and not for one second apologizing for it.

Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along

Tell me who wants to look back on their years

And wonder, where those years have gone

I'm old enough to know what I am, my strengths and weaknesses, what I can do and what I can't do. I'm old enough to realize that no matter how hard I try, the real me will come screaming so I'd better not fight it. I'm old enough to be sad, knowing that I'm too old to still be childlike and be so brave and not be force to apologize for it.

But I'm old enough to learn that I'd better start living the life I want, because I'm too young to regret not living the life I wanted to live.

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*Title of song : I Hope You Dance

Original Singer: Lee Ann Womack