I Need To Be In Love

I know I need to be in love,

I know I've wasted too much time.

I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world,

And fool enough to think that's what I'll find.

- Carpenters, I Need To Be In Love



I just have to post it again. Oh well, I'll blame it on Jasper. Always talking about being in love these days. I used to be the one babbling nonsense just so I can mention what's-his-name. I used to be the one who constantly wears a distant smile on my face, just because I received a text message or some such inconsequential thing and it already made my day. I was to the one who used to tell each and everyone of my friends how I hated panting, going crazy, being insanely, in love about a person who can't or won't return my feelings. Both are a big no-no in my book.



So I sang the song wholeheartedly. Just because it fits me. I wasted too much time waiting for perfection, foolishly thinking and desperately hoping I'll find it. My friends are marrying already (I even received an email just before writing this entry of a friend's picture of her engagement ring), some even have children growing up rapidly that at the rate I'm going, my friends' children will have girlfriends and boyfriends and I'll still have no one. A friend asked me if I still believe in someone out there being meant for me. I used to. It's just hard to believe it now.



The thing is, I think I need to be in love. Otherwise I wouldn't feel complete. I can be a millionaire, not needing to work, and I'll still want to be in love. I can be successful, independent woman, and I'll still want to be in love. That's why it fits. I need to be in love. Need. When has it become a necessity? I wouldn't know. I know I'm still not making sense. I just need to say it.



I need to be in love.



*will go back to singing hopelessly romantic love songs...Gah!*