Just Like That

Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you walk out with nothing. - Ally McBeal



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It's nothing really. Just me going about my usual wanderings in the house during the day. Taking a nap, eating, reading h/d, surfing the net, watching tv, and amidst all these, I'll see something that will trigger it.



It was just an ordinary commercial on tv, and as usual it involves a family. And I felt a pang hit me in the chest. I struggled to snatched it out of my mind and after the commercial it was already gone, I was already back to my old self.



We were cruising along Roxas Blvd. and because it was a stop sign, we stopped briefly. I glanced at my left and I saw this couple holding hands while walking in the bay park and laughing. They were not a good looking couple, nor they seem to be a couple who has everything, but they looked happy...and in love.



There was that pang again.



It comes and goes. And I tried my damnest to have it take a back seat in my mind, for if it comes surfacing full time, I know I'll be bawling and asking the heavens 'why me?'



I like myself, I like my life. But sometimes, the feeling of something missing will be all too consuming and I'll be feeling so lonely, just like that. Some people don't know how much they have it good.



Sometimes I wonder if it will still happen to me...