Christmas Cheer

I won't ask for much this Christmas

I won't even wish for snow, and I

I just wanna keep on waiting

Underneath the mistletoe



...I don't want a lot for Christmas

This is all I'm asking for

I just wanna see my baby

Standing right outside my door



- Mariah Carey, All I Want For Christmas Is You



I'm beginning to hate Christmas and I don't like it. I don't want to be Mrs. Scrooge, and I don't want to really live up to the 'grumpy old maid' reputation.



But one more question or comment about me not being part of a couple or inane comments like 'malamig na naman yata ang pasko mo' and I won't be responsible for murder or causing serious bodily harm to someone.



Truthfully, I hope people can understand why we snarl everytime we are asked that question. Why wouldn't I? I am wishing, praying with all my heart that He would someday (sooner rather than later) use His divine powers to lead my Prince Charming to me.



I see couples everywhere. And yes, the weather is fit for romantic hugs and kisses. And the nights are longer and more conducive to cuddling and whispering sweet nothings under a flimsy blanket. But hey, not everyone has the same life. And I firmly believe that we (I'm trying to get everyone who's lonely this Christmas on my side, because misery loves company) are being punished enough by sickening sights of couples holding hands while walking without being interrogated by people worse than the Spanish Inquisitors.



But the thing is, it's me. It's my life, it's personal and I'm the one doing the waiting so I'm really pissed at being pitied than anything else. And I especially hate (I'm running out of words for HATE) people who are not even my friends (read: nosy, irritating relatives) asked me something really personal, and clucked their tongues when I answer in the negative. They never believed that I'm okay. They'll just give this blank stare but I can see the pity that goes with the clucking of the tongue. Tsk. Tsk. All alone again. And it's Christmas.



GAH!!!



I'm really not asking a lot this Christmas. I'm just praying for good health, just enough wealth to get by, and my True Love to finally come to me. But it's in His hands, not mine. I just tend to give Him and Fate a little push.



So, if someone asks me again why am I still single and alone this Christmas? You can take it up to Him.