If I Could Read Minds...

...I would want to know...

...What goes on inside my teacher's mind as we were left in the air, because she was absent and didn't notify or tell anyone anything.

...What my previous students (from another class) think of my new ones (darryl, josie, weng and irene)

...What Jonathan is thinking of trying to slash his wrist with scissors just because Camille didn't want to give him her picture.

...What went on Mrs. Borja and Mrs. Elamparo's mind when faced with a situation like Jonathan's.

...What Eleanor is planning to do after practicum. I know what I want but I am at a loss on how to proceed. and Eleanor is already planning her trip to Africa's volunteer camps.

...What Josie thinks of Jonathan trying to slash his wrist. Hope she doesn't get any ideas. I hope no one in our two classes (it was combined today because our teacher was absent) got any ideas.

...Where does Liza thinks I'm going to get P8k for a trip to Coron Palawan? I really, really want to go (palawan has been on my list since...forever!), but I think I have to let go of the idea before I dig myself an early debt grave.

...What everyone thinks of my manip boyfriend, GALE. Wee!

I can only dream...

...and do manips on Adobe Photoshop. Tee hee.



I'm still dreaming. Damn. If only Adobe has magic that can make manips come true. I'm a newbie at making manips but who cares? As long as he's with me and we look good and happy together...wee! Dreams are certainly made of this.

Bespren Remcy

Spent the better part of my day talking to my bespren, remcy. I went online this morning at around 9 and we talked over the phone for more than half an hour, then spent the next 4 hours chatting online. As our usual, before the distance get the better of us, we spent it dissecting the ways and means and meanings behind the guy's actions.

I didn't know i have the wrong cellphone no. so i got her new one and landline, just in case, it was me who needs someone to talk to. The whole experience made my resolve to go out of the country stronger, since getting out and working abroad means better pay and better pay means i can visit rems and ria or maybe if i dream hard enough, get to work in new york...or london.

Rems would prefer new york though as it's nearer. I would settle for anywhere in the east coast as it will give Rems and me a chance to see each other more often and with Ria, the 3 of us will be in the same time line at least.

Maybe, as Liza puts it, it will be hard, as homesickness will ensue, but i hope i can be adventurous enough, to look forward to a new life.

Hopefully, (i'm crossing all my fingers here) i get the chance, not only to dream, but to live this reality.

Ariel

*i think i said i'll only post the serious ones here...oh well.



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New Diary

So.

I just opened another livejournal account. and i think i like it better. it has pictures! wee! anyway, go visit. i'll put all nonsensical, inconsequential stuff there, so i'll probably update there more often and put the more serious, more read-worthy notes here.

i hope i can distinguish.

tee hee.

Confidence

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."
- Henry David Thoreau

A friend asked me earlier today why I wasn't teaching yet. I kept quiet because I'm conflicted on how to answer this question. I tried looking for work last summer break, but I didn't know if I tried hard enough. I got rejected twice and made a fool of myself twice during demo that I was disheartened to continue searching and looking and simply gave up trying.

Twice.

I wonder if that counts as trying hard enough.

I'm in denial. Of course not. It was a measly effort, minuscule in comparison with the determination I pursued this dream of being able to teach. What the hell was I doing?

So, during Christmas break, when I was feeling afraid again, on the verge of quitting again, because my confidence in demo teaching is on the negative, I tried talking to myself and telling myself I just have to get through this. And I can spread my wings and look for greener pastures.

Wherever those wings will take me, I hope I can settle down and find what I am looking for.

New Year Meme

* got this from a livejournal I visit everyday...

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Dami...but the most memorable will be the travels to Singapore, Malaysia, Banaue, Batad, and Sagada. Wee!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I made a TO DO list, not exactly a resolution, and I shortened the list this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Chewy

5. What countries did you visit?
Singapore and Malaysia (unless virtual travel counts and then it would probably be pretty much every country.)

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Money and Boyfriend

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Hmm, birthday?

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
At least we tried to venture into Bazaars.

9. What was your biggest failure?
I don't like to think of that as a failure...so none.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No, thank God

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Queer as Folk DVDs (ay si Liza yata bumili non for me...hehe)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?


13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Politicians, celebs, and Kris Aquino (kahit kailan...)

14.Where did most of your money go?
I didn't have any. But anyway, travel, some clothes, and the rest to books.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Going out of the country. Yey!

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
The Pinoy Big Brother Song

17. Compared to this time last year, you are:
Heavier. I think...

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Exercise. especially before going to Batad...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Binge

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Already done. Spent it with family.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
Ah ...no.

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Queer as Folk, House,MD, CSIs,

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I hated Kris Aquino then too.

26. What was the best book you read?
Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman, and re-reading of CS Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia (uhm, are those both from this year? well, let's assume they are.)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Doesn't really fit the question but I discovered that I wasn't listening to current music anymore, keep listening to music from the past. And that I would love to have an ipod, especially on long bus rides.

28. What did you want and get?
See blog of Christmas wish list...

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (best of the entire series...)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was depressed because I was fat and lonely so I binge some more...vicious cycle, really.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having both things I mentioned in #6.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Pretty much in clad in red or pink or something that is particularly slimming.

34. What kept you sane?
Daydreaming about Brian Kinney/ Gale Harold.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Duh, Gale Harold

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Hmm, gas regulations and additional tax for petroleum products.

37. Who did you miss?
Rems, Ria, RV and Jerry...old friends who are no longer in Manila

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Gah, probably SPED classmates and Angel.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
If you dilly-dally, Time will leave you behind.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Can't think of one particular song...maybe...

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.