I'm already planning what I will do with my 30s because I feel, with my upcoming 29th birthday, that it'll come faster than I can say 'Happy Birthday to me!' Like any person my age (or at least, I'd like to think we all traveled this merry, crazy road), I feel like I wasted my youth on nonsensical things. Climbing the corporate ladder serving idiot bosses, spending more than a hundred pesos on coffee from Starbucks everyday, getting fat and unhealthy, and wasting time talking about the latest office gossip, day in and day out. It has been like that for half of my twenties, until I decided to quit.
I didn't know that I will feel more insecure because I suddenly have no salary, am dependent on my mother, and I basically went back on the feeling of those 5 months after college graduation when I'm neither a student nor an employee. I'm studying now, and I'm looking at my options on what I can do when I'm 30. I've wasted my 20s and I don't want to do that to my 30s. I'm going to live the life I wanted, and by hook or by crook, I'm going to do it.
I don't have highly ambitious dreams, nor am I expecting to reach all my goals, but I wanted to be able to try and I wanted to be able to look back ten years from now and there won't be any regrets at all.
I just want to travel, at least to my top ten destinations. I want to own a business, even if it will not make me rich, at least it will give me fulfillment. And I want to look young and stay young. Vanity it is. I have no problems being 30, (tell me I said that when October comes) but I want to look 27 at least. Most of all, I wanted to experience life. And all that it has to offer.
I was watching the International Olympic Committee award the 2012 Olympics to London and that's 7 years from now. I realized they are already planning an event 7 years from now 2 years ago. And here I am, still hoping I can shed some pounds before my friend's wedding on September. So I decided I'm not going to make the same mistake of wasting valuable time on useless things.
At the top of my head, here's what I wanted to do. First and foremost, I want to eat healthy, lose unwanted body fat, and drink lots of water so my skin will look younger. Then, I'll find ways to make each day interesting, always look for a new friend, never forget old ones, and indulge my parents and my grandmother. I will not stop my email subscription of new words every day, new quotes and words of wisdom, and I will always marvel at the sensation of how good it is to rest, lie down on my bed and be alone for at least 2 hours everyday. These things I can do immediately and will continue to do so.
When I reach my 30s, I'm planning to have my own business, no matter how small, just that it's my own. I wanted to help, whether volunteer for international organizations, in churches, or just helping special children, I just wanted to do my part. Next year, maybe I can already take my Master's Degree. There's so much to learn so I won't stop being a student. No matter how lowly people look down on me.
Of course, after watching the London people celebrating their victory over Paris in the bid, I want to visit Beijing in 2008 and London in 2012. The fact that those two cities are in my list is definitely a bonus. Travel the Philippines, arm with only my camera and my mind's eye, as I wonder how Filipinos always managed to botch things up even with a country this beautiful.
Am I planning to get married? Who knows if that is in my future or not. Am I planning to live abroad, and leave the country for good? I can live abroad and work and save, but I will never leave the country for good. Even if they let me live with Daniel, or Eminem or Matt Damon as incentive. I can only plan, but I'm not so rigid that I'm no longer flexible. There'll be lots of disappointments, road blocks and difficulties. And I'm prepared for them. I'm also prepared to change my plans if I change my mind. I wouldn't be me if I'm not constantly changing my mind.
Lastly, I will live with Christ in my heart, because I'm so far from reaching all these things, as poor as I am, that Faith certainly plays a big part in living a life of happiness, contentment and fulfillment, whether I am 30, 50, or 70.
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